My Story

Hahax, I feel very funny about myself. Im very sure that I have the ability to become a movie maker (with my very own life experiences). Life always has it's ups and downs huh ?? But why mine is full of tragedy ?? Hey, I hope you come across my blog someday and read this. You made my world go upside down ! *Zinggg*. But I pretended and kept that to myself as I don't want to get into any complications again. I liked the way you motivate people. You made me feel that I'm special ! I was so delighted ! But I expected that all this would happen and it did ! But why you chose that specific day to tell me that ?? You should have told me earlier or later na ? You simply said like that and went off without knowing my situation. I was terribly in fever that time. I cried and cried ! But I know that there's no use of crying over split milk. Every night I couldn't sleep thinking of you. A dime a dozen ?? No no ! You're certainly not ! I like everything.... Your simplicity, kindness, humbleness, politeness & most importantly I like you because the respect you have for girls. Maybe you didn't realise that you have all these positive qualities but within 5 unforgettable months that I have mingled with you, I noted everything. And all I could say is you're perfect in each and every aspect. I know you'll think that I'm writing all this simply to impress you. I'm not a drama queen and I don't create scenes. I've told you this earlier. Hope you still have that in mind. I slowly tried to adapt myself being your friend again but I failed. That's why I texted you... and I really felt bad coz I distracted your mind. And your final msg which was delivered on 17th of December, that was too good till I couldn't reply you. Hahax, thanks for stopping me from texting you. Finally, this is all what I wanted to say. I don't want any telephone conversations or messages, but I wanna meet you, hold your hands and look into your eyes and tell that I'll be back after a few years, maybe 3 years, 4 years or till you complete your studies. I'll repeat whatever that I have said before to make to realise that im not like others, too.

FOOLED ??

You know what hurts me so much ? It's when someone made you special yesterday but makes you feel like you are nobody today. That's painful, isn't it ? Why can't people understand that and keep on repeating silly mistakes ? 
Leave my soul without regret,
Leave the pain within my heart,
Heal the wounds with your touch no more,
I guess it's time for you to die,
Goodbye little bird,
For you won't fly...
I know that giving up doesn't always mean that I'm weak, but I'm strong enough to let it go and face it.
To people out there, please appreciate human beings (especially the one you care & love) when they are still alive. There's no point of crying and regretting when they are no more.  
*This post is not aimed at anyone* 

DID I HURT YOUR FEELINGS ?

 

I didn’t mean to hurt you...

I'm posting up this for someone who is very close to me...... and I hope that particular person will read this. Please forgive me for what I've done all this while. I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you but I want to you to realize how precious are you to me. I know.... lately things are going very badly and I want you to know that the reason is not only me but YOU too ! I'm not accusing you but please accept this fact. Let's turn back see........ rewind all the things that happened in the past. Did you do everything just to make me jealous ? OR it's just part of your life ? Your each and every behaviour made me to shed my tears. I'm really confused with your opinion on me. What's on your mind actually ? You end up scolding me if I don't want to obey your rules. I'll definitely obey you if it's something right. I know..... you have rights on me but not to this extend. I want to spend all day long with you, wana cry out aloud and let you know my feelings but anyhow, all this not going happen. 

 

Thou,

Possessed a pastoral personality,

And....

To my blind sight,

Thou looked winsome....

But now....

Scission is nearing me,

As I couldn't digest this....

I tried to vivify,

But I failed,

Although lei was given a caveat,

Lei still crossing the boundaries, 

I feel uncouth !

I'm deprived of strength,

Crying out aloud with decisiveness.... 

I created this by my own... And you know that, don't you ?  I still unable to understand you. Who am I actually ? I'm no one..... I'm just like others to you, right ? I know that already but I just don't want to make that as a big issue. After all, who am I to you, right ? There's no point of questioning and I don't want to do so. Just let the bygones be bygones. 

If you're reading this, I just want you to know that I miss you. You do mean a lot to me. You're the one and only person whom I will share all my feelings; sorrowfulness,sadness, happiness and everything. I do allocate my precious time especially for you, can't you understand ? 

 

Forgive me for liking you too much

I'll forgive you for not liking me too much..... 

 

DREAM WEDDING...

     ~We are meant for each other~

 

This idea just came across my mind last year.... And I'm excited about it ! Okay, now allow me to share it to you.

I prefer something romantic & maybe that's the reason why I chose for a wedding on a cruise. I've been dreaming to go for a trip on a cruise for such a long time. But I'm still waiting for someone special to bring me..... Eeerr... Oopssy ! that's too early, I guess ?? 

             Departure: Penang Island   Departure: Singapore

My wedding ceremony will be held for about 4 to 5 hours, which includes rituals and dinner for the guests. The cruise will fetch the bride, bridegroom & guests from Penang at 4pm. From Penang, the cruise will travel to Singapore. (I don't have any ideas on how long it takes to reach there). On the way, we'll conduct the ceremony, starting from 'nallungu'. 

I'll dress up like this :

My macho husband will dress up like this :

Next, the thaali tying ceremony :

Later, the wedding dinner will be held. And there's special attire for this occasion too. Next, we'll dance together and rock the floor !!!

 So, what's next ???

 HONEYMOON !!!!!